I’ve never been one to put my business on social media but at this point I’m just like… whatever lmao. I’m so miserable with life and so tired of feeling the way I do. I can’t sleep without having nightmares and I can’t focus because I think about what happened all day every day and it’s just draining. I feel like I’m being haunted by it and I keep blaming myself for it and thinking of everything I could’ve said or done differently to prevent it from happening even though it wasn’t my fault. I can’t think of a time where I’ve cried so much in one day. I can’t keep pretending it doesn’t hurt anymore because it really fucking does. My anxiety has never been this bad. Lmao.